I was watching Saving Hope where the Chief of Surgeon had lost a patient because another patient was so greedy to get ahead and placing the reputation of her hospital at risk to save another. Her other patient died and left a broken teenager, left with a broken life. The scene continued with another doctor approaching her of his situation while not emotionally ready yet to resolve her experience still, she was met with another emotionally charged situation. You just can’t get a break.
Yes, this is a drama series. A fictional life dramatize to exaggerate our real lives. Is it? An exaggeration? Truthfully, I think our real lives has more drama than what we see in TV. At least in TV, we can predict the next scene because we’ve been introduced to characters that we know their predictable behaviours. In our own real lives, however, we can’t predict the “what if’s.”
The scene continued with another drama, an intern just quit to be a doctor. So, what other worst thing can happen? The scene ended with her being emotionally vulnerable. Could you really avoid to be emotional at work? Is it forbidden? Is this a weakness? Who said so?!
I was moved to start Avant-garde because of this: people tend to avoid the truth. We hide from the reality that we, as humans, are so vulnerable yet we avoid to accept that truth.
We learned to wear a mask yet we yearn to be who we want to be. Because of fear. We are so damned scared that the world will judge us. We are so afraid that we will not be accepted or valued but belittled, embarrassed and avoided. For what? For nothing! Until we accept to move towards the truth, we will always be feeling undervalued.
Why is it being judged by others is so important when we already judged ourselves that we are worthless? How can you lead when you can’t even command yourself to your greatness? How can you ask for the truth when you are lying to yourself all the time? How can you see change when you can’t even try to make a change? How do you think people would believe you when you don’t even believe in yourself?
So, I ask you now…to cry or not to cry at work?